To know the Way,
We go the Way;
We do the Way
The way we do
The things we do.
It’s all there in front of you,
But if you try too hard to see it,
You’ll only become Confused.
Sitting early morning in this Indian cafe, having a coffee so strong it makes my hands tremble… Ants are crawling out of my new laptop (eeks, I try not to worry !)
A cow is walking in to chew some last night leftovers…
I am back in the land of plenty, the sacred Motherland where I feel challenged and alive. My senses are making overtime, but my brain rests, my body can receive, and my spirit feels home 🙂
Since the end of this year is near contemplation arises, making me super grateful for all the opportunities and challenges this year and the ability to embrace my dark sides.
This year has been full, sometimes too full… Having an eager personality is challenging,
I tried to have a part in all what was presented to me, to serve everyone, which was impossible and no good for any.
I became more aware that when my serving goes in overdrive I am actually losing the connection with myself, and go against my true nature… Learned to say Yes to myself more and more. Little by little I feel more comfortable to share my emotions, to be vulnerable, and especially to take critic.
Thank you all for being so good for me, to bear with me, and to show the courage to confront me!
All the pieces of last 44 years puzzle and the lives before are starting to make a beautiful whole, things fall in place, make more sense, and I can put things to rest.
Last May I had a Numerology session, I was able to ask any question, but I had only one. Am I walking my path?
Deep down I feel I know I am, but it was superb to receive the confirmation that doing it my way is just right!
That I am where I need to be, doing what I need to do, and when I doubt I have to remind myself, since it is so easy to forget!
So my purpose in life is clear for the moment, how to forfill is not clear and I leave it up to the universe that it will guide my spirit.
I strongly feel that I have to inspire and teach, in my own way, not comparing myself to any other teacher… and that was exactly also the outcome of the Numerology session.
I did not read the 85 pages report that came with it. I do not want to know what is coming my way, I like to follow my instincts, test myself and trust the process with two feet sturdy grounded … practice practice, all is coming
Since the session things fell into place, being extremely grateful for teaching Teacher Training nowadays… all these unique people that crossed my path and opened up to the practice and more important… their own selves. They shared their process, which intertwined with mine. You all are my biggest teachers, you all amaze me time after time and I feel so blessed to be part of it all.
I now have to allow myself to even go slower then I have been going the last few years. To keep a clear focus, and not want to do it all. Being here in Palolem Goa is the ultimate test, surrounded by all walks of life in an environment which is fueled with all kinds of temptations and opportunities…
Even here it’s a daytime job to stay connected and true to myself without judgement and expectations taking over. But life is sweet, and I am so fortunate to share and live it!
Thank you for being part of it!!!
And… practice practice, all is coming … prepare yourself, since you have to face it anyways…
Life can be cruel or supersweet, the choice is up to YOU!
-btw; this coffee feels like I am on drugs, although I have actually no clue how that is in realtime 🙂 –
I am me,
And you are you,
As you can see;
But when you do,
The things you can do,
You will find the Way,
And the Way will follow you.
Taken from the Tao of Pooh
Astrid van Zon 